I Saw My True Self. Then Why...

I've witnessed it.  

That place inside me which is beyond worry.  

Beyond happiness.  

Beyond excitement.  

Silent. Still. Unbroken.

For a moment I was not a teacher, not an Indian, not even a body.  

Just awareness. Free.

Then I came back.  

Back to this body. Back to this mind.  

And the moment I opened my eyes — the pain returned.

The pain of changing faces.  

The pain of the society and it's hollowness.  

The pain of a youth that is misguided and ignored by the system.  

The pain of a country selling its future for today.

Why? If I have seen the truth, why does it still hurt?

Because that’s the paradox.

The True Self is beyond suffering — because it owns nothing.  

But the body and mind are not. The body and mind are connected.  

When you come back into them, you also come back into relationship.

You see a student and you remember you were once taught.  

You see trees cut and you remember you breathe that air.  

Compassion is not a weakness of the True Self.  

It is the proof that you came back.

Buddha sat under the Bodhi tree and became free.  

Then he got up and walked for 40 years teaching, because people were still suffering.  

He could have stayed in bliss but he chose to return to pain.

That’s why it hurts.  

Not because you failed to rise above.  

But because you did rise above... and still chose to care.

An individual cannot carry the whole society.  

But an individual who has seen the light cannot pretend the dark doesn’t exist either.

So yes, I am beyond worry in my True Self.  

And yes, I am in pain in my human self.

Both are true.