Diwali

       On 12 Nov 2012 was a day of hurry because the next day was Diwali and that’s why we have to purchase many things regarding this festival.  My father is suffering from leg pain so I and my sister decide to purchase eatables and goods which are necessary for this festival.  As I have been told before that I didn't do my work with responsibility same is true today.  It was the decision of my sister to go and purchase sweets and things regarding Diwali. Later I also agrees and goes with her because I think it is after all my responsibility to help her because she is my elder sister yet I know she don’t seems elder but still the truth is truth.  When I woke up today I have decided to do 15 -15 lesson plan of each teaching subject so that tomorrow I can revise the lesson but because of my lazyness I again delay it.  I have completed 13 lesson plan of English and I feel satisfied because today I am with my family and there is fear of lesson planning or future or fear of losing something.  Totally I can say today is the good day and I enjoy it and today I realize how much a family is necessary in our life.  But still inspite of having a good family good family member I feel empty, why I feel I don’t know?  I think it is because of my fear, fear to lose them.  Many time I feel can these people always live with me then the answer will comes NO.  One day they leave me I will remain alone and if they will not leave me then I will leave them. This means the truth is nothing is permanent.  Many people came in my life in past and many will come in future but throughout all these process I sometimes attach with those people whom I like and sometimes it feels bad when they leave us but it is the truth and we have to accept to and as soon as we accept it is become easy to relax our mind.
 I remembered those days when I was doning my graduation at that time my political science teacher Prof. Sunil Aggarwal very much inspires me and I get so much impressed with him that now I made him as my Role model but I really miss him very much I don’t know he miss me or not but I miss him very much.  Because he is not just a person for me, he is more than a person, he came to my life at that time when I am very much frustrated from my life because of my continuous failure in study and I have been abused by everyone that I have not done my work sincerely.
       Yes I know I had not done my work sincerely but there is something in me which always show me a path a path which is shown by Him a person who took Diwali in my life and I can't forget that person who took Diwali in my life who show a light in my life who is yet not with me but always with me in my memories in my expressions that one is Prof Sunil Aggrwal. And My father also always told me that only those wrestlers wins who have a stamana to wake up again and again and never tired to be beaten by some other wrestler,  he always told me just stay just keep standing again and again and NEVER GIVE UP.