Art of Nature

Diwali

       On 12 Nov 2012 was a day of hurry because the next day was Diwali and that’s why we have to purchase many things regarding this festival.  My father is suffering from leg pain so I and my sister decide to purchase eatables and goods which are necessary for this festival.  As I have been told before that I didn't do my work with responsibility same is true today.  It was the decision of my sister to go and purchase sweets and things regarding Diwali. Later I also agrees and goes with her because I think it is after all my responsibility to help her because she is my elder sister yet I know she don’t seems elder but still the truth is truth.  When I woke up today I have decided to do 15 -15 lesson plan of each teaching subject so that tomorrow I can revise the lesson but because of my lazyness I again delay it.  I have completed 13 lesson plan of English and I feel satisfied because today I am with my family and there is fear of lesson planning or future or fear of losing something.  Totally I can say today is the good day and I enjoy it and today I realize how much a family is necessary in our life.  But still inspite of having a good family good family member I feel empty, why I feel I don’t know?  I think it is because of my fear, fear to lose them.  Many time I feel can these people always live with me then the answer will comes NO.  One day they leave me I will remain alone and if they will not leave me then I will leave them. This means the truth is nothing is permanent.  Many people came in my life in past and many will come in future but throughout all these process I sometimes attach with those people whom I like and sometimes it feels bad when they leave us but it is the truth and we have to accept to and as soon as we accept it is become easy to relax our mind.
 I remembered those days when I was doning my graduation at that time my political science teacher Prof. Sunil Aggarwal very much inspires me and I get so much impressed with him that now I made him as my Role model but I really miss him very much I don’t know he miss me or not but I miss him very much.  Because he is not just a person for me, he is more than a person, he came to my life at that time when I am very much frustrated from my life because of my continuous failure in study and I have been abused by everyone that I have not done my work sincerely.
       Yes I know I had not done my work sincerely but there is something in me which always show me a path a path which is shown by Him a person who took Diwali in my life and I can't forget that person who took Diwali in my life who show a light in my life who is yet not with me but always with me in my memories in my expressions that one is Prof Sunil Aggrwal. And My father also always told me that only those wrestlers wins who have a stamana to wake up again and again and never tired to be beaten by some other wrestler,  he always told me just stay just keep standing again and again and NEVER GIVE UP.

Game of Mind

       On 11 Nov 2012 is a day of ordinary living like other days and I have not done anything special which give me satisfaction but still today I feel happy because today I read Osho and whenever I read him I feel a kind of pleasure because he is so much clear with his ideas and his point of view and he didn't care  anybody and was a great thinker and reformer who is a first person who told change your inner Nature not through supression but through acceptance and Understanding. As I am very much a emotional fool and many times I am in trouble because of it.  For a person like me Osho is like a new wave of light who show a new path.  But is it possible I ever been happy without any support.  Either it is Vivekanada or Osho or J Krishnamurti the truth that these philosophies are not followed by today's people.  Osho is most reformist type of thinker who didn't care for society who only follows the Nature and was so brave that he inspite of so much criticism in his life never leave his way of living and his philosophical point of view.
       But in today's topic I am not here talking about Osho or the great Philosophers rather today I am talking about the game of mind.   How clever the mind is actually it never want to die and it dies when there is not problem and thats why our mind created problems again and again.  I have remembered those days of my life when I was a child and I only cares for one thing that is pleasure.  I just want pleasure and nothing else.  And sometimes I have been badly beaten by my father because of my irrational way of living.  But it didn't matter to me at that time and only one thing matter at that time for me is to enjoy to play and to play everyday. But I knew I never hurt anybody even in my childhood neither physically nor mentally but if any one hurt me then I also hurt definitly it was my philosophy of life at that time but now I never want to hurt any one but Yes I have many desires which sometimes make me restless, I feel it is because of me.  And what is the difference between me and my mind I tried to understand it.  Some times I think that the answer of this question is very simple just like CAR and The DRIVER.  But sometimes I think why I am so much attach with the worldly people rather I know these people never remain with me everytime still I have a strong attachment with them still I don't able to detach myself with them.  Is it my ignorance or my attachment.  I have many kind of experiences of my life and these experiences told me not to follow anybody just be with yourself but still I am so much attach with these worldly relations and these relations creates trouble for me but I know if I want to detach myself from these people then I have to live with them.  Because if we really want to be disinterested type of person then one thing is required that is to live like lotus flower as it never get contact with the water in-spite it always live in water but water don't have any impact on it.
       But is it really a easy task that is the question???????........