The Gift of Smile

I want to smile,

Yes I want,

but can't,

Really I can't.

                    Why it is so?

                    Because of lack of sociability,

                    yes lack of sociability.

Though I try to smile,

When people are passing,

In front of me,

they are smiling.

And they are accepting,

perhaps,

I will also return a smile to them.

                   But I can't,

                   though I try,

                   really I can't,

                   though I try.

I smile in loneliness,

I smile when I was alone.

I smile when I was at my home,

                    But I can't do so,

                    when I am in society.

                    Why I can't?

                    Don't know.

                    Really I don't know.

Thinking of the past and present,

correlating the past with present,

living like a watch,

which tells the time to everyone.

                     But can't smile;

                     Why it can't?

                      I don't know.

                      Really I don't know.

                      How can I know?