Struggle of Existence

The life is becoming so complicated, and we are running after desires, desire of money, desire of name, desire of good life partner  but these desires can or cannot be fulfilled.  Now  I am just putting a question is front of my own self, the question is it is whom who desires?  Is it me or my body or my own Existence.  I think I cannot be able to give the correct answer of this question.  After reading so  much books,  still I don’t  got any answer of this question.  While sitting Quietly, I just tried to observe that it is who, who creates desires.  Is  it me? And if it is me then why I am creating these desires because I know that I am immortal and throughout my this journey I just found that it is my ego which every time took me back to this worldly place.

                                                     Upnishad says that there is not world and here whatever we saw is just a shadow as Plato has said that the whole world is only a ‘Shadow of Shadow.’ Infact the whole theory of Vedanta says that there is only one “Brahman.”  The Upnishad says it is HE(Rudra) as a personification of Brahman  dwells in the creatures, and burning with fury at the end of time he as lord dashes to pieces all created things. There we also found the existence of Atama (The Soul ) or Jiva Atama(Individual soul) In that we found later that the Individual soul don’t have its Independent existence but the One Ataman which is also called the Supreme Soul or as the real Self has its own Existence without having any desire.

                                                   Later where one side “Vedanta” believed only on one Brahaman and it say only realize thy self , but on the other hand some school of thought in “Purana” in which it has been said that there are many individual soul which are not like the Supreme one  but they are also immortal just like the Supreme Soul but then the question which arise on my mind is if they are also immortal then they are also the truth because what I think if anything left after death  then it means it is The Truth.

                    Vivekananda  a great philosopher and Spiritual teacher of his time said that we are separate only when because we have egos but truly we all are part of one Existence, and every soul realize it sooner or later then it means we all are one,  it means there is only one who exist,  but that one is Whom? This question is so much complicated that  in beginning I am talking about this question and at end I also put up this question. But one thing which I realized today that is “we all are one”.  And this Oneness cannot be realized through reading Books because these books of every spiritual master are just the record of their  Experiences  but  we cannot realize the Truth through other's Experiences. Today the whole humanity is looking for rest and we only take rest in our own "True Self." But how can I realize it? I think it is very easy but very Difficult.